Tag Archives: anxiety

Ruminations #6

Posted on February 27, 2017 by Tietsu

Is it okay to spend hours looking over old notes, marveling over the fact you managed to come through the event in one piece while being awestruck at how stupid you were to do it to begin with? My notes … Continue reading →

Posted in Essay | Tagged anxiety, blood, creative process, depression, Looking Back, nostalgia, Old Writing Notes, Short Stories, sinus issues, The Novel I've almost written, war, Writer's Block, writing | 8 Comments

Eight Fingers, Three Paths, and One More Year

Posted on January 5, 2017 by Tietsu

I have some ideas… Continue reading →

Posted in Essay | Tagged anxiety, ideas, inspiration, New Starts, new years resolution, Red Boar Jones, resolution, Short Stories, terror, The Novel I've almost written, Writer's Block, writing | Leave a comment

Argument with Self: 12/23/1016

Posted on December 23, 2016 by Tietsu

“Do you really need to have the walls melt here?” “It looks cool.” “Sure, but does it add anything besides that?” “It’s been there for over a year and a half now, taking it out seems wrong.” “That’s mythos. Next.” … Continue reading →

Posted in Creative Fiction, Something Else | Tagged anxiety, character, Cutting Room Floor, debate, dialogue, editing, mythos, note to self, Process, The Novel I've almost written, writing, Writing Process, wrongness | Leave a comment

Ruminations #3

Posted on November 14, 2016 by Tietsu

As if suddenly cutting from the Gordian knot of my own existence. I find myself panicked like a child before some great event. Liberated my mind flies, throwing out ideas with the easy words of “Fuck it, who will read … Continue reading →

Posted in Essay, Something Else | Tagged anxiety, creativity, drugs, escapism, fear, ideas, mania, politics, ruminations, rumor, stories, this is not normal, Writer's Block | 2 Comments

Ruminations #2

Posted on November 2, 2016 by Tietsu

It’s amazing looking over the notebooks for the last 400+ days and realizing that you’ve been running in circles for over year, hoping to find some unrefined truth hidden in the scorched and mulched ruins of what you were once … Continue reading →

Posted in Essay, Something Else | Tagged A novel someday, anxiety, doubt, editing, insecurity, mania, publishing, ruminations, talent, writing | Leave a comment

Secret

Posted on June 13, 2016 by Tietsu

I’m part of a secret society. We live in darkness, breathing in shadows and spitting out light. We conjure horrors and wake up the next morning utterly lost and looking at our wake with the disinterested grimace of an unappeasable … Continue reading →

Posted in Creative Fiction, fiction, Something Else | Tagged anecdote, anxiety, creation, death, doubt, fear, Life, madness, sadness, secret, writing | Leave a comment

A World Without Logos

Posted on May 31, 2016 by Tietsu

The older he got the more he realized that sobriety was a condition he was growing increasingly allergic to. He would have attacks. Pangs of panic as his face flushed red with an anxiety that was a distant as the … Continue reading →

Posted in Creative Fiction, fiction | Tagged addiction, alcohol, anxiety, drugs, fear, learning to smile, Life, Love, potions, reality, self-medication, sobriety, world | Leave a comment

The Novel That Refuses to be Written

Posted on May 3, 2016 by Tietsu

I sat down this afternoon with a goal: write. It’s the same goal I’ve always had for every shred of spare time, but lately my spare time as been relegated to extensive bouts of napping and general lamentations of the … Continue reading →

Posted in Creative Non-fiction, Essay, Nonfiction | Tagged anxiety, Creative Writing, depression, Dreams Away, Novel Writing, plot, summary, Sundering and Overpowering Two Separate Consciousnesses, The Novel, Writer's Block, writing, Writing Process | Leave a comment

Somewhere Along the Way the Muse Died

Posted on April 18, 2016 by Tietsu

During college I had a pretty specific ritual. It wasn’t unique, nor particularly interesting, but as is most important with rituals it accomplished something. During the required months I would throw myself into my school work, engage with its ideas, chew … Continue reading →

Posted in Nonfiction | Tagged A novel someday, anxiety, college, confidence, creatively deprived madness, depressed, Dreams Away, ideas, job searching, Life, muse, novel, work, writing | 7 Comments

Post Processing

Posted on March 9, 2016 by Tietsu

There are certain parts of grief that seem to change with every passing moment. Little broken things that shift in the soul like shattered glass and at their worst break something else amid their rattling. I figure the pieces can … Continue reading →

Posted in Nonfiction | Tagged alcohol, anxiety, death, depression, Dereliction of duty, grief, Love, processing, some small strand of fatherhood | Leave a comment